Monday, September 21, 2009

Plutonian Ritual Acquistion

This evenings evocation of Pluto was designed primarily to obtain information for the Right of Pluto.



Do to the upcoming event I will not publish too much of this.

The skeleton stag - extinction
inevitable end
stand glowing in a forest that has never known light
Pluto cannot be directly known
It is the antithesis of knowing
the naught
the Abyss, the HunTun
Pluto is our Xaos
Marionette praying to a flatulent god [break]
bring Pluto to center
Source of all darkness and fear
before death and life
Its nothing is deeper than our...

This is a bornless ritual. I am seeing that more clearly now than I think I wanted to admit. I also saw during my meditations a very strong connection between the HunTun mythology and Pluto. The abyss here is a vacuum, Pluto becomes a reflection not of our sun but of the black hole at the center of our galaxy. We are going way further out now than our solar system. Is Pluto a planet? It doesn't even matter at this point. It is a designated point of nothingness, the closest we have within our solar system to that moment before the big bang. If for no other reason than it is the furthest out our heliocentric planetary magicks go (for most).

The gua: Xiao Guo

Fly, but not beyond your grasp! This is our limit. Pluto. The furthest our consciousness can travel without being obliterated by pure void. the overreaching hand grabs only misfortune. While abysmal this is a pure force. This is Yin to the Suns Yang. Much more so than the moon. The moon being a counter charge. Pluto is THE yin. An excellent place to cast nearly any kind of magick from do to its contrary nature. The magickian becomes the counter charge of yang and stands grounded more solidly in yin. The magickian must be pure in their intent to cast from this place lest they reverse their potency. Death resulting. What is cast from Pluto is pure by its nature. Yin serves to strip intent of all but the purest arrows of Will.

Four Yin with two Yang. The magickian should carry two wands.
The opposite qua, that of the magickian entering Pluto is Zhong Fu / innermost sincerity.

Thats its for now. I need to review my past notes from this sphere.

[afterthought: the original monasticism failed miserably. I am however 10 days nicotine free. this has not come easy. I got the flu or some such illness and have been confined to the house on antibiotics. Needless to say my Will reserves were completely drained by my efforts to quit smoking and most every other use of it dissolved.]

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Plutonian Monasticism (day I)

IAO
plutos sigil blazes in the cardinal zones
burned Alchemy Aromatics Pluto Incense (available at www.tzujan.net)
stood erect and empty pulling, pulling magnetic
saffron and damar
pure yin to the yang of the Sun
crystal balls, translucent spheres, crystal skulls
black lodestone center.
reverse sigil extinquish all zones
"Ahhh! Woooh! What's happening? Who am I? Why am I here? What's my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Okay okay, calm down calm down get a grip now. Ooh, this is an interesting sensation. What is it? Its a sort of tingling in my... well I suppose I better start finding names for things. Lets call it a... tail! Yeah! Tail! And hey, what's this roaring sound, whooshing past what I'm suddenly gonna call my head? Wind! Is that a good name? It'll do. Yeah, this is really exciting. I'm dizzy with anticipation! Or is it the wind? There's an awful lot of that now isn't it? And what's this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like 'Ow', 'Ownge', 'Round', 'Ground'! That's it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it'll be friends with me? Hello Ground!
[dies] " The Whale
IAO

First day of monasticism. Nicotine withdrawal bad.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Ouranian Barbaric Word


Opened temple

Burned Alchemy Aromatics Kyphi Incense

It is my Will to discover the Ouranian Barbaric word for PEACE.


Sigil cast for two nights prior. Sigil cast again outside temple prior to working.

Sigil drawn now.


Meditation, deep humming vibration, solve et coagula

Disruptive thought, bell rings, Om

Sad thought, bell rings, Om

Angry thought, bell rings, Om


Peace resounds in the sharp high tone of mind and the deep low rumble of guts


The Die is cast.

I am called outside to me duties. This is ritual now.

Calculation made

interpretation...


Personal relevance:

Heng-Long Lasting-Duration

Thunder above Wind Below

A heart is drawn beside the boat that carries the old married couple home

Stop and Be

The creek has a path. If you are in the creek it causes only misfortune to move against it.

Be defined by the situation.
"The way of long lasting is to let the situation determine one's changes and transformations."
-Master Huang

Monday, May 25, 2009

Monasticism Day VII

It is My Will that confidence be instilled in my customer base
GPR banished by bedside
Clean sheets and clean skin milky stars
Passive to the point
Intensive pleasure cast headlong into the Tzu Jan Star
good night, good night, good night.
Dreams resist me. Running late for Ms graduation
Atlanta traffic kills us and wicked Inn keepers don't keep words
No room for half our party, three beds for 6
I am running late. Out the window.
Running fast, fast up and down stairs
Leaping high onto a grocer cart piled 3 stories high
I can get in to the window from here
White dress black tux a newly wedded couple sitting atop the junk with me
The cart swings and sways unstable, I cant get back in the window.
Waking up is fowl.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Monasticism Day VI

It is my Will to rest complete in my sleep
Sleep fell upon me and pentagrams burned
At the four quarters of my bed
My head burned with darkness
My right hand burned with sadness
My feet burned with regret
My left hand burned with desire
I awoke with faint memory of dreamscape escaping
Fist to the face of foes, a jihad of consciousness
Upon waking an escape occurred and I rested
Banished and rested some more

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Monasticism Day V

It is My Will...
SLKNT is much more than at first inspected
SLKNT is evolution, adaptive mutation
Learn to conserve this
Learn to manipulate this
Draw what one is, out into the environment
Burn the proper wicks and smoldering sigils
Quit procrastinating and make making made!
Make sacrament of Coffee
Make instigation

Monasticism Day IV

It is my Will to experience a little death
My death, the expulsion of Qi freely given
Midnight sex rights massage banishing
Dirty end
Blinding light
sleep, dark, dreamless, deadly sleep
4am and calm, 7am and calm
5pm and calm
There is nothing in this save illumination
There is nothing in me
I become the abyss and I represent
Notes from a Frater indicate a death I cannot see
In dream we wear the same pants
Two legs, one torso two chaospheres
And we shop in Asian markets for just the right size

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Monasticism Day III


It is my Will to walk through this darkness with calm resolve

as on level ground

to flow as water through a crevasse

K'an flows through smoke of water

The scent of lotus heavy in perception

The token gives passage and I am thrown into the depths

Frozen water surround, freezing water captures

As breathing slows to hypothermic the sigil is cast

And I wait

Blood of the moon reflecting impossible distances

The smoke rings Míngwángxīng

And I am given Sun

The water is low and the mountain is high

K'an is kept away and cultivation begins

I am to design two small bowls for sacrifice

Going with the time it is that I should decrease the firm and increase the yielding

"Thus the superior man controls his anger and restrains his instincts"

Six in the fifth supreme good fortune and ten tortoise shellsAfter ten changes it should be known

That evaporation from the lake rains down and nourishes the mountain

Restrain the self that others may prosper

Sexual Gnosis -->black ray

Monday, May 18, 2009

Monasticism Day II

It is my Will to invoke the intelligences of Pluto
Míngwángxīng
Bell rings
Míngwángxīng
Bell rings
depths of distant screaming hells
hollowed halls and courts of judgment
It is my place here safely frozen quietly listening
Repenting silently in the tenth
A boat and a little blue bearded man gives coin
A bell and a skull of silver token
Myrrh burns solid and my will is done

Dreams: recorded elsewhere to maintain privacy.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

NOX + Monasticism day I

Last nights NOX rituals hit the spot for me. On many levels I felt very confident and excited about the direction that the Kalatchela is going. That aside everyone's rituals were awesome.

My ritual.

Taoist Death Metal and the Art of Demon warfare.

This ritual was quite simply an evocation of my personal demons into the willing magickians around me. This done an exorcistic battle ensued. Three total and very heavy exorcisms.

This ritual also marked for the the taking of the Lesser Observances of a Monk of Chaos for a period of at least one week, perhaps longer.

Monasticism day I:

1. Spent nearly 10 minutes looking for my staff which seemed to just vanish into thin air. Found it.

2. IAO banishing in the car on the way home from temple.

3. No dreams.

4.
Link Break Curse Back
Listen to old crone groan and the sizzle of sigil scents
Demon portal bloodhound pack circles
Blood on the door wiped clean and thanks for the link
Burning boiling hell that is yours
You can keep it
Your own sadness, your own depression, your own feelings of inferiority, your own attempts to bolster your week little ego, your own controlling manipulative string of lies
You can keep it
smoldering fields were battles were won
Two taps of the cane forever echoing
2, 2, 2, 2 is ultimately 8 and we close

5. Two sexual gnosis dedicated to magick. One with partner one solo. The first was used to charge a RED chaosphere. The second began as a black chaosphere that hovered above my head then shot a ray of yellow into my chest. This caused me to involuntarily convulse for perhaps 20 seconds. the intensity of that casting was a bit unexpected, but good, very good.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

and where the fuck have you been?

Okay I really have no intention of answering that. I have been.

Ritual meditation this evening
Heavy smoke and rolls of pillar snow
Transfer, slight of mind, play of hand, relax
Placement is magick, manipulation of object one
Preparation for the move to object two
One in two and AAACHOO x 2
Kuei is out and playing games
7 die and a bird sings a song to the moon
63º and midnight
Yin is quicker than Yang

Friday, April 10, 2009

Protection

Quick Cast
Protection sigil.
A huge storm came up on us this evening.
Banished by GPR
Stated intent
"It is my will that no harm will fall on this house or this family."
Created mind sigil
Cast sigil in all four directions
Cast sigil above my head
Cast sigil below my feet drawing with my right foot.
Impromptu mantra during drawing of sigil into aether.
Held finishing posture while forcing my will outwards and mostly upwards into the cell.
My body tingled with energy and I was drawn to tears. I could hear the storm subside as I held my posture. Before casting the news was saying to take cover. After casting the news was saying we were in the clear.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Anti-Freeze

4:06:2009

I should be ashamed of myself considering my lack of upkeep on this blog. But I am not. Things are afoot and things are cook’in. And whom my dears is cooking for you?

To preface I should note that magick has been extremely prevalent of late. It will take some time to go back and update the situation, so I will not. April 2nd my grandmother has surgery. My Sister, Frater U and myself performed a simultaneous casting the night before (April 1st) for the success of the surgery. Our results were spot on. There are pics of this to post so I will add to this in a separate post-post at a later time. Before this there have been a series of Earth workings. Utilizing the Exploding Talisman Technique as well as general household earth magicks. This technique will need explanation as well, something I’ve been toying with for a minute. We have had a NOX since I last wrote; this is where I performed the Earth Exploding Talisman ritual. Prior to that my wife and I performed a Spring Equinox Rite with our Chickens first (and seemingly only of 3) egg of the season. This went exceedingly well and deserves much more than a preface, so I will post-post on that one as well, besides I have pics from that too. In fact I have pics from several of the larger workings I have performed over the last month of blog absence.

So what for tonight? Working with Frater JD we performed an Antifreeze ritual. We both have gardens started and do not wish to see them parish do to a “blueberry summer” (thanks Dave). So JD created the sigil and mantra and did some preliminary work with it. This evening we both worked in unison. I had copied the sigil and with my son (15 months) colored it and talismanized it.


I used this talisman with the mantra this evening while burning incense specially tuned to the element fire. I pulled warmth up form the equator. I burned from within until the energy exploded form me and out in all directions blowing the cold away. Then I saw JD sitting in front of me in his study. Our incense burning, I put my hands out palm out to meet his. Palms together we chanted and created a ball of heat between us that gre to massive proportions and warmed the soil, air and continued to pull warm air currents up to our region.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Earth Deity Found


Ritual to find a strong Earth Deity and give it its first mission
Ritual performed with Frater J at his ‘Dirty Foot’ Temple.

1. Opened by impromptu calling of the corners and placement of elemental weapons
(Impromptu calling of the corners involves a light invocation of the element and a freestyle verbal calling)
2. At the Earth quadrant statement of intents were spoken allowed and sigilized
3. Seated at temple center “NOBO” was chanted, incense was lit and Salvia cigarettes smoked
4. Visionary results obtained
5. Sigil burned

Results:

Name: Salakunt
Image: The image was that of an evolving snake/salamander. End result was a larger salamander with glistening grayish green and red scales, large black hood like that of a king cobra, and huge antlers with a neon glowing from within as if they were made of electricity rather than bone.

The image was at first of an upright glowing triangle that took some concentration to turn upside down. With this done this slimy birth-grey beady eyed snake/worm came gushing out. This quickly evolved into a proper snake with brilliant scales. This crawled up and into me wrapping around my spine and crushing itself into my structure. Its head filled my head and then the antlers came shooting out of my head and into the heavens. The hood spread itself out behind me. Arms sprouted into my own and legs followed.

Secondary intent was [private].

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Earth I

Earth
Talisman creation
Sigil casting
Meditation


Free flowing into this one. Did some inspiring synchronistic research on my name prior. Had some sigil work in mind that I wanted to do and this flowed well into the earth meditation of the evening. Don’t want to go too deeply into the talisman etc, need to maintain a distance from these things. However I did achieve an understanding of the eye rolling during meditation. This is not just an exercise but a system. As the eyes roll so does the cosmos. The eyes of course are yang, the only yang we have, and they orbit, allowing for a clearer vision of placement. This is a vantage point with which to see the macro-cosmos. Then the almost violent crossing of the eyes, the slamming of the eyes into the tan tien, brings it all rushing into the body, the macro becomes the micro. I stayed here not allowing for deeper gnosis. I stayed with earth, stuck to her allowed her smooth transitions and evolutions and seasons and rains and violence and warmth and decay and beauty to guide me. This moment was a euphoric gnosis that I have not felt in meditation in as long as I can remember. Tzu Jan, to be completely what one is, natural. To do exactly what one does, flow. To be… there were moments of feeling at one with fallen branches and limbs and stick laying on the forest floor, in piles, branches mingling in such a way with no form and no pattern but as to have each stick holding each other stick up off the ground. Earth is the function of chaos. Earth is the found art of the minds eye. We invariably are earth, we are in earth, we are of earth, we are grounded. And this too came to me, this grounding. All this work is grounded, all this work has foundation.



The Altar is nearly finished. I will post pics when it is completed. I felt compelled to put it in a very public place, my front yard. Front and center of my house. My cat killed a mole yesterday and left it on the porch, the day after the altar was erected so I put that on the altar. Kinda gross but it seemed appropriate. I will be setting it up so that me and the people that know about it and its purpose can pin prayers and sigils onto a flag behind.

Monday, February 9, 2009

misc.

I have performed several rituals that have not been recorded. This is to my downfall. I don’t want to go into a lot of excess detail right now but should at some point write the mercury talisman invocation and sigil casting. I obtained results from this ritual in a relatively short period of time. Unfortunately I was not specific enough with my intent and ended up with something I did not quite mean. To give a brief, I cast with the intent of finishing the Xaotao book before I left for my doctoral program. The result so far has been a decision not to pursue that particular program for various reasons. These reasons are necessary and good, but this overrode the more implicit idea that I should have this book written in one year. Now, this is not to say that the intent may still not be achieved. It may come about that the relief itself from the pressure to get it done before a big move and shift in my life will be a good thing. We shall see how this plays out.

I have tightened up on my diet again. Not that I got totally off track, but I was eating too much dairy, and too much in general. On February 7th I fasted all day and then on the 8th ate a bowl of steel cut oats. I found that after 24 hours of fasting I begin to get a bit light headed and while this would ordinarily be an okay state for me I cannot completely fast and feel comfortable in my ability to care for my son at my highest capacity. My eating has become lighter and of grains, nuts, fruits and cooked veggies. I am staying away from processed foods, no veggie burgers etc. I have also cut back significantly on my smoking, which had picked up again at an alarming rate. This is in direct response to the ritual I performed to obtain a name for my addiction demon. This name has been used to great affect to curb the desire to smoke when inappropriate. This is most of the time these days.

Beginning preparations for devotional work dealing specifically with the earth goddess energy. I do not at present have the internet in my study which has slowed me down a bit. Sometimes in dealing with specific practical matters in Taoist shamanism it is frustrating as most of the information that is available in my personal library concerns yoga and philosophical Taoism rather than any practical magicks. Jan Fries has some useful information in a relatively practical format, but still he deals more with meditation than magick itself.

So my beginning preparations included building two new raised garden boxes in my yard, constructing an altar of wood and concrete on my front lawn and cleaning/organizing my study, cleaning my brushes and establishing an altar space dedicated to this specific purpose.

I am feeling like much of this is the manifestation of some “organization” sigil work I have done in the past month. I will have to check my intent bank to verify that. At any rate, taking the Xaobala system as a map of microcosm will guide me in my spiraling in meditations. In this the Xaobala is a map that was developed from observations of the solar system and quantum physics. This is superimposed on the inner self. As without so within. So beginning at earth and studying, working with, invoking, enchanting, manipulated etc the energies at each planetary sphere an order is developed whereby solid work can be achieved. I feel like I have been skipping around, trying this, tasting that, and generally dabbling. It is time to get some depth. And so it shall be.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

demon work

I have been through some kind of a down phase, nothing bad, just not feeling the motivation. I have been focused very strongly however on the feminine aspect of my practice. My son is making cognitive leaps like a little psychonaught. He has even started spinning till he falls down from dizziness. He will then stare at the carpet designs until it wears off and do it again. The house is looking pretty tight. And I am feeling good about how things are going in that direction.

In ritual tonight I used Salvia Divinorum 60x to achieve gnosis. Considering that I was attempting to root out the demon of my addiction, namely nicotine, I feel I was successful. An obnoxious repetition marked my gnosis. There was a very physical component as well, and not surprisingly. It was as if I were rolling into my self, over and over again. The auditory experience was just as bad, with a whiny, pesky voice also repeating itself in time to my physical pulsing. I acquired the sigil and the name and had conversation with this pest of an entity. I should note that there was also a bit of anxiety involved. Again not surprising considering the nature of nicotine.
I will also note that using dissociative for specific intents is exceedingly difficult. Honestly in all my years of practice I think this is the first time I have attempted a very specific intent during a chemi-gnosis. Fighting through the urge to just go with the flow was difficult, but once achieved rendered a tunnel vision focus indescribable.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Hun Tun Med II

Focus on the vanishing point of the perceptual horizon of cognition.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Hun Tun Meditations

Began working on a Hun Tun meditation today. Not quite intentional at first but my reading now is heavy in the Hun Tun current and extracurricular reading is rather mystically oriented (i.e. unification of existence). Developed a sigil during meditation and focused on that for some time. I began to concentrate on empty space. This began with the empty space in the organs of my body. My lungs have empty space that make them useful for breathing, my heart is empty so that blood can fill it, my stomach is empty so that food can enter. This all hearkened to Chapter 11 of the Tao Te Ching. My body is empty. Then I felt that particle acceleration from the other night, which led me to concentrating on the empty space between the cells, particles and atoms of my body. Several very strong moments of gnosis occurred during this. This was an excellent meditation overall and one that I feel worth repeating for a while. So begins the Hun Tun meditations.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Moving Right Along

My meditations as of late have been interrupted by a painful sinus infection that has made it exceedingly painful to breath through my nose. In fact there is pretty much a constant pain but nose breathing stimulates the nerves in my left nostril causing the pain to increase. Needless to say this has not been the best condition under which to meditate.

In spite of this I did have an excellent meditation last night. Despite the short duration and pain I experienced a particle acceleration that seemed to dissolve my being out and into my surroundings. This gnosis was strong and left me enlivened the rest of the night.

I finally got around to interpreting the hexagram from my last talismanic sigil working. It is possible that this waiting period allowed for the hexagram to act on me subconsciously as I have been acting according to the divination, and now will assuredly continue to do so.

Yü / Enthusiasm

Devotion to my work will inspire enthusiasm for it. There must be a natural obedience to my own personal flow or movement. This is indicated in the placement of K’un (obedience) below and Chên (movement) above. There is a warning in the old yin in the 3rd place. I have a tendency to do too much upward social comparison. This is not good for me as rather than basking in reflected glory I tend to look down on myself. This line indicates this. Looking up too much is mal-productive. If I were to be climbing a mountain and looked up at the peak of the mountain too often and for too long eventually I would lose my footing and fall. I must watch my feet and be in the moment of this movement if I ever expect to find myself at the peak. There needs to be no hesitation, as this will bread remorse. So, moving right along…

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Book Found

I found my book yesterday at 11:50am. (Exactly 10 days from ritual performance) This positive result is even more charged, as it was an act of replication. Replication of course adds external validity to the experiments, rituals, and servitors of others. It is of interest to think in terms of experimental science with this. Even more interesting for the moment is to think in terms of occult science. So if the servitor of Soror M has been given external validity does this strengthen the servitor? I should think it does. As with any work the more times something is replicated the more it begins to be seen as a credible theory and of course eventually law. External validity is a rare accomplishment in the occult sciences. I think I was just as excited about that as I was finding the book!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Peace in Xaos

My wife woke me up this morning by stimulating all my body parts, then put on my Tai Chi video and basically pulled my ass out of bed and to the TV. This is a DIRECT manifestation of several of the sigils that I cast last night on several different levels. So I did 45 minutes of tai chi this morning. My body felt much better all day, yet another result. Take'in it easier tonight. No serious work. R&R till the morrow.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Talisman sigil working

I've been taking things way too seriously!




Monday, January 12, 2009

Sunday, January 11, 2009

slight of mind

Party and private ceremony.
Mindfold games
KC

Saturday, January 10, 2009

NOX (Night Of Xaos)

Participated in several excellent rituals.
Performed Invocation of Sun Wukong.

Results varied from participant to participant. For my part what little consciousness I managed to hold on to during the invocation left me feeling like I was being violently dragged around like a rag doll. I felt light, excited and full of energy afterward. Several items were enchanted and a protective talisman for the house of our hosts was created. Some advice was disseminated and some divinations occurred. Admittedly my report of results from this ritual are weak. I should have gotten a questionnaire together for the participants to fill out afterward. A note for myself and future workings of this nature.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Book Lost

Disaster! I have lost my copy of Taoist Yoga. This has put a serious cramp in my studies and in the writing of my book. I was just getting ready to sit down and start seriously writing up the yoga section and my primary reference has up and disappeared. It has been several days now.

I have borrowed the servitor of a Soror. I performed the ritual this evening.

0. GPR
1. Lit single candle
2. SOI: “It is my will to offer these keys to [name of servitor] in trade for the return of my book Taoist Yoga.
3. Created sigil within a circle, placed keys in circle on top of sigil
4. Asked servitor out loud to take keys in trade for the return of my book
5. Chanted [name of servitor] for awhile then added “gimme back my stuff” ended up specifying, “gimme back my book”.
6. Chanted until gnosis was achieved.
7. Wrapped keys up in paper and hid it behind some stuff on a shelf.
8. GPR

During my chanting gnosis began to take on a pulsing rhythm. Interestingly the candle seemed to pick up its pulsing as my mantra and gnosis pulse increased in speed. This could have been due to my breathing toward the candle, though I thought it was rather light. It could also have been a trick of the eye induced by the gnosis. Regardless it aided me in my trance state. Each time the gnosis pulsed I shot the image of my lost book into the sigil. After awhile I let this fade into the imagery method described to me by the servitors creator
.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Divination Concerning the Move to Carrollton, GA and UWG

I obtained two hexagrams during this divination. One for me (left) and one for my wife (right). What is good for one is not always good for two. I am thinking now that this divination may call for a third, combined, hexagram. Sometimes what is good for the two is good for the ones.

Method
0. Banished by GPR
1. Meditated on the move and creation of jiaguwen sigil script.
2. In light trance state used brush stroke techniques to paint sigils (see Figure 1).
3. Threw coins to ascertain the Hexagram.
4. Used 20-sided die to obtain numbers to be interpreted through my personal gematria.
5. Banished by GPR

Figure 1

Results

I will be using the Wilhelm/Baynes translation of the Book of Changes for this interpretation.

The hexagram obtained for my aspect of the move was Chên / the arousing (shock, thunder). I threw an old yang (9) at the beginning and an old yin (6) in the fifth place. This hexagram represents one of the eight repeating hexagrams. The trigram Chên is repeated. Here was see thunder repeated. “The first thunder denotes fear and trembling, the second denotes shaping and exploring.” (p. 649) There is no doubt how this plays into my concerns about this move. There is a lot of insecurity for both my wife and I. School does not exactly pay well and we have a child. However, the end result of this is that enduring the fear, enduring the initial shock of the move and perhaps enduring the fear of financial insecurity will pay off in the end.

THE JUDGMENT
Shock brings success.
Shock comes-oh, oh!
Laughing words-ha, ha!
He shock terrifies for a hundred miles,
And he does not let fall the sacrificial spoon and chalice.
(p. 647-648)

The judgment commentary also deals heavily with the idea of beginning again in the spring, cultivating respect by attention to detail and stirring ones qi from below. All of these ideas play well into the idea of finishing my education. Not only will this require an attention to detail but will also foster a respect that will bring professional success.

Nine at the beginning repeats the initial judgment adding, “…Fear brings good fortune. … Afterward one has a rule.” (p. 649) Six in the fifth place again indicates success. This time there is the indication that nothing will be lost. While there is still danger, going “hither and thither” invokes this. There is indication to keep still, hold to my center. The danger is indicated by the nuclear trigram K’an while Kên indicates averting the danger by keeping still. It seems to be indicated that this has already been achieved by my already being on this path.

The hexagram for my wife concerning this potential move is intimately tied to mine. She obtained Wu Wang / innocence (the unexpected). There is a very strong interplay and relationship between my Chên and her Wu Wang. To start the lower trigram of Wu Wang is Chên, the repeating trigram in the hexagram Chên. Further, one of the nuclear trigrams in Wu Wang is Kên. As previously mentioned Kên is also a nuclear trigram of Chên. In fact they are in the same position within each hexagram. This will be expounded upon later.

This hexagram is ruled by an old yang in the first place and an old yang in the fifth place. This divination resulted in an old yang in the fifth place and an old yin in the second place. To begin the ruling judgment indicates “…the essence of the Creative, as well as the tirelessness of the supremely sincere.” (p. 509)

Should misfortune come it is sure to have an external origin, thus it will come and go. It seems that this may be counseling patience. If misfortune presents itself success will come in allowing it to take its course, not forcing anything and not concerning oneself too much with it. This theme is again repeated again with the old yang (9) in the fifth place. This line indicates that the individual is free of internal illness and that any illness befalling has come from those around him or her. “One should not try an unknown medicine.” (p. 513) This line ties back to not forcing anything. Be still (Kên) and things will work themselves out.

The old yang (9) at the top in combination with the old yang in the fifth concerns me. Here we are given,

Innocent action brings misfortune.
Nothing furthers.
Action without reflection brings about the evil of
Bewilderment. (p. 513)

This is not a curse however, as we see the need for reflection. It seems that action itself will not bring misfortune but action without thought, reflection, perhaps planning in the case of this specific divination. In Wilhelm’s endnote on the hexagram he restates that the overall personality of this hexagram is that of innocent naïveté or being without ulterior motives. Nine at the top seems to indicate that the time for action has passed. I wonder if this is not referring to school in particular as my wife also toyed with the idea of schooling some more rather then working. This would confirm her leaning toward work. The end result of these line placement “indicate that for these lines the time has come to remain quiet.”

In sum, perhaps this is an indication that the ball has just bounced back into my court. There is no blame or fault in chilling out while the other acts. My personal interpretation is just that. I will be in a very active role finishing my degree. My wife will be in a more passive role, working. Active and passive here have been delineated by the original focus on school, which would be the primary reason for moving to Carrollton. I cannot further interpret my wife’s hexagram. I feel that she will have to take what I have thought and her own interpretation into consideration. My overall feeling however is that this will be a good move for me and not a terrible or bad move for my family. In the end, in the grand scheme, it seems favorable.

Monday, January 5, 2009

to be cont...

Divination ritual 12:00 – 1:00am

Too tired to expound upon these or do any major interpretation. This can wait for tomorrow. For now just to note I performed first a private divination and then a personal divination that required two hexagrams. More on that later.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

freeform

Meditation 4:30 – 5:00pm

Meditation this afternoon was forced but ended well. Felt exhausted and a bit loopy, presumably due to my fasting. Meditation began with microcosmic orbit in traditional posture. This gave way to a more relaxed freeform meditation. Eyes forced inward and cultivated qi in my hands. Here was a moment when my body vibrated and I pushed this energy into the imagined ball that I held in my lap. My hands tingled with static sensation; there were moments of lightning presence. I drew this into my tan t’ien. Meditation ended abruptly and shockingly when my phone rang. It was almost painful.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Sanctuary

Well the first post of the year comes with a report of some results. Some time ago I performed a ritual with the group to acquire an abbey. Under the group working the intent was for a larger abbey, but there was the underlying desire/need for a personal space, a sanctuary within which to do my work in privacy and with little to no interruption. I have secured such a space. It had not occurred to me until the day before the New Year that my grandmother had a spare bedroom that was in disuse. I inquired and was given permission to arrange the room as a personal study. So far this has been an excellent space for me, quiet, roomy & private. I am free to do my meditations, quiet rituals, studies, writing and painting. It is undeniable that this is the acquisition of a personal abbey and a positive result of the working from the November NOX, Channeling CV17 Into Intent Flags. Good to start the year of with positive results!

Friday, January 2, 2009

Quiet and Salacious
Out the window my eyes go

Fence of wooden boards

Thursday, January 1, 2009

The moon comes at night
There is everything in naught
Listen to silence