The Advent of Winter Solstice

So I come upon myself a wash of detoxing chemicals and the scent of death. How should this be? I dedicate myself to the Sun, wash myself in the Light, anoint myself healer of the sick, and I fall headlong into the darkness. I dramatize of course, it’s not near as bad as all that.

With my recent planetary shift I knew that I would need to move my main altar to the East. I have traditionally kept my personal altar in the West. There is a Yin Yang principle at play in this. The Western Altar faces East and the Eastern Altar faces West. So now I find myself facing East. The Altar facing West, and the Western Wall of my Temple was empty. Like a black hole, it began to suck in all light, becoming plugged only by those things in my possession that were too dark to count for light, those things that were in fact of Death.

The Eastern Border of my Temple piled higher and higher. It has been many years since I have uncovered so many of my magickal items at one time. The Light shines on all things. And I open myself to the elements. The West, by contrast, reflects the Shadow cast by the Altar in the East. This shadow collapses in on itself.

There seems little need, ironically, for much discussion of the East and my new placement in the influence of Sol. Except to say that my prior work was exceedingly successful. However, this desire to heal others has turned on me. Apparently this ability is strongly knotted with the healing of one’s Self. It is indeed hard to pluck a splinter from your brothers eye when you have a log in your own. The strength of the Light when working from the Sun also tends to highlight one’s own personal flaws. If I may utilize redundancy with that last sentence to further illustrate my point!

Forgive me. I believe that the warmth of the slippers on my feet and the warmth of the wine in my belly are influencing my writing.

When you fully embrace the Solar magicks, not just utilize the Sun, but enter the Sun, and your work is the Light from the Sun, you yourself become darkness. If you project pure light, then what is left is darkness. That is not fully accurate. What is left is a darkness that is only dark due to the speed with which light moves through and out of it’s center. The core of the sun is pure darkness. Much in the way that the core of a black hole is in fact a Sun. The same as Yang holds the seed of Yin and the Yin holds the seed of Yang.

Now that I have moved past Pluto, through Mercury and am deeply embedded in the Sun, I find myself connected back to Pluto. Though only a countercharge, it has been an unexpected result. And this my Temple and my soul reflects.

Nonlocal Exorcism with Solar Influx

To begin I feel I should both apologize to and applaud recent participants in my rituals. To explain, a large aspect of my recent rituals has been that of spontaneity. The Chinese word that I took my Frater name from, Tzu Jan, literally translates as spontaneity. I have used this as the basis for rituals in the past, but recently this has become almost the rule of rituals that I present. The method of presentation quite literally has been, "This is the intent of the work we will do, these are the symbols, mythologies, and often my own personal opinions and interpretations that we will be utilizing. Now, this is what might happen, this is what I may be doing. Knowing these things do what you feel like you need to do." So I have asked allot of participating magickans. I have asked for their ability to act in the best possible manner during rituals, without allot of guidance. I have asked that participants be magickians, not participants. And without exception one and all have risen to and exceeded expectation.

The following ritual was no exception and in many ways much more dangerous that what I have asked of magickians in the past.

Nonlocal Exorcism with Solar Influx

I work at a Psychiatric hospital with severely psychotic individuals. I have noticed over the past few months that there seems to be a particular energy or type of psychosis that afflicts older black women. I have been working with one particular individual who has been afflicted with a particularly vile concentration of this. I have been considering an exorcism ritual for quite sometime. Knowing that this is not a working that could be accomplished in one working, thus this was a layered working. Also the exorcism certainly could not be performed with the individual at the hospital, not by any of my personal methods at any rate. So it also had to be performed nonlocally.

I have done some much lighter versions of this with other individuals. When an individual gives me something (i.e. drawings, handwritten notes, pieces of trash, packets of spice, crayons etc.) I have placed them on my altar for a period of time, said daily prayers over them and then burned them. 2 of the 3 individuals that I have done this with have been discharged from the hospital and not returned. The severity of this case and a couple of others has upped the ante.

The day of the ritual the individual OM gave me two tootsie rolls. These I used as sacrament for those who were willing to partake. On that day as well, another individual asked that I pray for her. There was a heavy emotional charge during this day. Two women broke into tears and required immediate attention from myself and another co-worker. Later both of those women broke into spontaneous worship and revival style prayer.

The basic intent was to exorcise the demons of psychosis, enhance my personal ability to exorcise demons and heal by my presence and desire open-handedly also to move fully into the sphere of Sol in my astronomical macro-microcosmic work and to use this shift to enhance all of above stated intent.

The ritual:

Set up involved placement of a single candle, incense, a sigil, small altar and the cut tootsie rolls in the center of the room. Chanting took the form of glossolalia. Instruction involved my telling the participants that I would be drawing from solar powers, exorcising the demons described above and to chant and do what they felt necessary. There was a warning and informed consent concerning the nature of what we would be dealing with. Aside from this there was allot of discussion but little instruction.

Once the chanting had begun I handed out the sacrament to those willing. I then set to work clearing Mercury form my mirror and drawing in Sol. When I turned back to the circle I went into full chant and went straight to the hospital. There I performed all of the ritual acts that I have wanted to perform at work but have been unable to. I dealt very heavily with OM's exorcism but then, contrary to plan, ended up being flooded by others. So, very much like I do at work, I dealt with these "demons" as they came. In the end I centered myself on the unit that I was focusing on and allowed the solar energy to build within me until it exploded from me saturating the hospital and vaporizing this demon psychosis in its path.

I don't think I speak for myself when I say I was utterly exhausted after the ritual had been completed. Frater Usul wisely suggested another banishing be performed.

Following ritual work did tend to energize me and I have felt quite well since. Of course more will be known concerning results over the next few weeks at work.

Prior work by Frater Usul, dealing with the throat chakra and communication blended well with my personal work of the evening. Further result from this chakra work have manifested in interpersonal dealings not appropriate to put in this medium. However, suffice it to say that there have been positive results from this work.

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Yi

Dealing with a few things. 1) Motion toward Solar work 2) Job 3) My place in the Tao.

So my decreasing draws to close. My time of loss and humility smoothly transition into the next phase. My cup is being filled. Thunder indicated firm resolution. Water from above sustains and fulfills, abundance of chi, thunder below. Wind above, outward flowing chi. Resolution to help aid and assist mankind.

King Wen’s decision; “favorable to have somewhere to go. Favorable to cross great rivers.” There is plenty of wind for my little wooden boat.

Relevant commentary:

“The joy of people is boundless; Increase of what is lower comes from what is above; It’s ways are greatly brightened. Favorable to somewhere to go because it is favorable and correct and therefore is blessed. Increase moves with gentleness and mildness, it proceeds daily without limit, heaven bestows and earth accepts, thereby things increase without restriction.”

“The Tao of increasing always proceeds in harmony with the time.”

“The superior person follows the good when he sees it and corrects his faults when he finds them.”

Initial 9: Favorable to engage in conducting great accomplishments. Supreme good fortune, no fault. Though the lower is not suitable to engage in great affaires. Increase alternates to watching.

Fifth nine: With sincerity and truthfulness , benefiting their hearts. No need to ask. Supreme good fortune, My virtue will be favored. No need to ask the reaction, this is what he really wants. Increase alternates to nourishing. 

Personal interpretation:

Heading toward Solar work. It is a good time to make this journey form mercury to the sun. Build a wooden sail boat to navigate the path. Symbols for this path will be three magi riding a wooden sailboat through an ocean of stars.

My boss and supervisors are good and will provide me with what I need. My working for the welfare of the people will always bring good fortune.

My place in the Tao is represented by the cup. I am an open vessel being filled.

 

In my absence

So much has occurred over the past few months during blogging inactivity I fear that to even try to recount any of it would miss the point entirely. Much of it has been of an intensely personal nature and thus not bloggable. If I remember correctly I mentioned that I was going to be stepping back from the blog for a minute.

Joined the Masons (swearing in on the Tao Te Ching) got job, moving from mercury into the sun. 

This is just a breaking the ice… Coming back into my own.

Xuan Wu

One of four creatures associated with the cardinal directions in Chinese mythological cosmology, the Xuanwu, (“dark warrior,” sometimes translated as “black warrior”) is a chimera-like hybrid animal with the head and tail of a snake and the body of a tortoise.

Unrelated to the twelve creatures of the Chinese zodiac, these four creatures each has its signature color, season, element, celestial quadrant, and other features: Green or Blue Dragon of the East (Qinglong: spring, water), Red Phoenix of the South (Zhuque: summer, fire), White Tiger of the West (Baihu: autumn, metal), and Dark Warrior of the North(Xuanwu: winter, earth). The fifth direction—that is, the center of the universe—in this cosmological map is China itself.

The origin of the cardinal-direction creatures is said to date back to the Warring States period (475–221 B.C.E.) and the Han dynasty (206 B.C.E.–220 C.E.).

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Other Chinese legends also speak of how the "Tortoise General" and a "Snake General" came to be. During Xuánwǔ's study to achieve enlightenment and god status he was told that in order to fully achieve god status, he must purge all humanly flesh from his body. Since he was born he had been eating the food of the world, humanly food, therefore his stomach and intestines were still human. Legend told of an event that a god came and changed out his human stomach and intestines for a godly body so he could fully achieve god status. (It was also said that the stomach and intestines that were tossed out became the "Tortoise Mountain" and "Snake Mountain".) The stomach and intestines taken out by the god who did the surgery on Xuánwǔ were said to have taken on the shape of a tortoise (stomach) and a snake (intestines). As many Chinese legends speak of certain animals becoming demons over time as they gain knowledge, that's what the tortoise and snake became, and terrorized people. As Xuánwǔ, now in his god status, heard of this, he came and slayed the demons from his past. However, he did not kill them, as the snake and tortoise demons showed remorse. He let them train under him and atone for their wrong doings, and they became the "Tortoise General" and "Snake General", and they assisted Xuánwǔ with his quests.

According to another source, once Xuánwǔ's had begun study of the way, he discovered that he must purge himself of all his past sins to become a god. He learned to achieve this by washing his stomach and bowels (intestines) in the river. In the washing of his internal organs, his sins melted from them and into the river in a dark, black form. These then formed into a black tortoise and snake who terrorized the people. Once Xuánwǔ learned of this, he returned to conquer the forms of this past sins and subdue them under himself and they became his servants.

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Xuan Wu. Mercury. The Black Warrior of the North.

Hermetic days

For those keeping up this blog, sorry. I have been keeping much more personal notes in my handwritten journal as of late. Some things are not to be blogged, or made public in any form. Thus is the nature of the beast.

I will give you this. I picture of my current altar.

I have two things going on. There are heavy Mercury workings afoot.

But even heavier Immortality workings. You see I have been a heavy smoker for may many years. For most of those years I have been smoking non-filtered roll your own cigarettes. By many years I mean over half of the time I have been on this earth. A few years ago I got a serious case of pneumonia. Since then I developed chronic bronchitis. You would think I would quit. And I did several times for a few month long stints. I am now getting over another bad case of pneumonia. I have come to believe the smoking may not kill me but that it IS killing me. This I cannot tolerate. I am too young, my family too young and my great work too infantile!

I may post my Breaks from my last smoking ritual at a later date. Shit I gotta minute I will post them now.

I have done two ritual with this intent. One with Fratres ST and JD. Very powerful and very painful. I faltered few days alter of my own weakness. I reactivated the ritual by simulating the ritual to the best of my ability. The following is the journal entry from this last ritual. Which has held strong.

1:13:2010

Burned Heavily Dave Lee's Alchemy Aromatics Banishing Incense

Reactivation of the no smoking ritual. This time with aids. Lozenges, etc.

semi recreation of 1st. 1st didn't fail., it wained after some tough times, too tough, too much to go into during ritual writing. [I failed].

Sexually charged sigil, yellow candle, picture of my son, last cigarettes, lozenges, demon slaying sword, offering bowl ashtray, 3* mark, Pine MNT bottle, divination box.

1st cigarette

too much mars in life

Smoking ANY incense too often will kill you

especially Mars

Extinguish cigarette on sword.

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2nd cigarette

a 4th appears where there was 3

break the last one

no more pleasure in this act

only alleviation of another displeasure

How can I mentor

Or even consider myself a magi

If I cant kill my own tormenting demon

Especially if that demon is killing me!

This demon is too easy to pass on

TO loved ones, one's children in particular

You do NOT want your son to struggle with this

Extinguish cigarette on demon slaying sword

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3rd cigarette

there is another, this should be the last but there is one left.

This IS the last 2 to break

Strange how tricky this demon is, to the point of manipulating

and distorting simple math!

I don't even like this anymore

Finish to affirm the distaste!

I can feel the sickness in this one.

Almost done. a bit of nausea

Cigarette extinguished on demon sword.

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Hexagram:

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Ritually broke 4th

Ritually broke 5th

Empty contents into bowl over Demon Slayer. Empty Box thrown to CWTZ

Finished water from Pine MNT bottle

Finish by IOA at main altar with wand

--ritual had its own plans

Burned rest of Sammael candle at both ends on top of sword

The whole thing caught fire

All tobacco burned and encased in yellow wax.

Hexagram of power over this demon. Mine i=s dead,m the problem is that is it such a rampant and fast breading demon an its offspring is innumerable.

Kan - cloud

Qian - heaven

Xu

the Tao of eating and drinking

Waiting on rain the Way the shaman waits patiently for rain during a drought. Needing the rain but waiting patiently until it comes of its own. I need to be over my addiction but must also wait patiently for it to leave of its own.

"If one has faith and remains steadfast, ones future will be bright."