Showing posts with label Ritual. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Ritual. Show all posts

Saturday, July 2, 2011

The Hermetic Walk of Seven Monks

Last night seven monks gathered at the Tzu Jan Temple in the foothills of the Appalachian mountains on the auspicious first night of the Saros 156 cycle. The partial solar eclipse on this day marked the beginning of a cycle of eclipses lasting 12 to 13 centuries. It is possible that the seven monks will continue on their journeys until July 14th, 3237; if not together then as independents. No one is for sure if they were immortals, rumor has it that they were.

The monks drank of consecrated wine. The spirits of several peoples were infused, to include the great oceanic squids, Godzilla and Thanateros. They had traveled from great distances to be with one another on this night and made merry within a sacred circle drawn by the seven. The monks drew five points of light and sound from within themselves and placed them at the four sacred corners of the world.

This done, the seven monks lit their lanterns and walked into the wilderness. A few townspeople saw them enter the wilds in the darkness of night. Such was the intensity of their focus and presence that none dared to stop and ask why these monks were leaving. The monks themselves kept the true nature of their purpose close to their hearts, with many intimations shared only with one another, but none speaking the true purpose aloud, even among themselves.

The chi was such on this night that the moment they were out of the artificial light and under the canopy of trees shaded even from starlight they were pulled headlong and with great speed into the sacred cool, damp, darkness of the wild.

One monk asked, "What are we to learn?"
Answer: "Enlightenment"
Monk: "Isn't enlightenment a rather selfish goal?"
Answer: "As your enlightenment increases so does that of the world"
Monk: "And what enlightenment exactly?"
Answer: "That of Nature"
Monk: "Internal nature or external?"
Answer: "Is there a difference?"

To be cont.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Big Poplar Two Wand Eight Mile Ritual Walk

  1. Find an 7-8 mile circular trail
  2. Obtain two wands
    • Either before or during the first mile of the walk
    • Select wands of relatively equal size and strength
  3. Cary one wand in the left and and one in the right
  4. Walk
  5. When you come full circle break the wands while pointing the broken ends toward the chest
  6. Dispose of the wand waste

Results from this ritual walk were strange and powerful. The macrocosm asks something of me, something pertaining to my own health as this relates to my personal strength and power.  The resounding answer was “YES”.

At one point while playing with the clouds and wind the universe looked down on me and said “you really have no idea what your doing.” This struck me as simultaneously true and ridiculous. I felt a tingling surge of energy that manifested in a deep hearty laughter. I laughed aloud in the face of the universe.

The past snuck up on me and I found myself quite sad. I was instructed by time.

“Looking into the past with such longing and desire is the same as looking at your own organs in your hands. Just as your organs are part of you, so is the past. But we cannot bring the past back nor can we look upon the organs of our own body without disastrous result.  One should be glad that the past is of us and has shaped who we are NOW, just as we should be glad that our organs are IN us and keeping us alive.”

And when I broke the sticks and at the point at which I injected the Chi (heart) there was a physiological surge, a quickening of heart rate and a tingling warmth that radiating our from my center.

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Sunday, April 3, 2011

Shakuhachi

In the time that I haven't been blogging the work I did to aid me in my work with severely psychotic and dangerous individuals has continued to develop. I began teaching a class on meditation and yoga. The individuals have really taken to this and many of them seem to have gained allot from it.

After some easy chair yoga and stretching I guide the individuals into a quiet meditative state by playing my Shakuhachi flute for 20 to 30 minutes. I do this twice a week. In my early classes one individual said "Its like you are saying a prayer for me." I was surprised and delighted by his intuition. As these classes have become more refined I have been slipping into gnosis a bit during the meditations. I have felt that I needed to be careful and pull back a bit as gnosis gets deeper. However, I have also noticed that as my gnosis gets deeper the class gets calmer. There is a static hum that radiates throughout the room.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Nonlocal Exorcism with Solar Influx

To begin I feel I should both apologize to and applaud recent participants in my rituals. To explain, a large aspect of my recent rituals has been that of spontaneity. The Chinese word that I took my Frater name from, Tzu Jan, literally translates as spontaneity. I have used this as the basis for rituals in the past, but recently this has become almost the rule of rituals that I present. The method of presentation quite literally has been, "This is the intent of the work we will do, these are the symbols, mythologies, and often my own personal opinions and interpretations that we will be utilizing. Now, this is what might happen, this is what I may be doing. Knowing these things do what you feel like you need to do." So I have asked allot of participating magickans. I have asked for their ability to act in the best possible manner during rituals, without allot of guidance. I have asked that participants be magickians, not participants. And without exception one and all have risen to and exceeded expectation.

The following ritual was no exception and in many ways much more dangerous that what I have asked of magickians in the past.

Nonlocal Exorcism with Solar Influx

I work at a Psychiatric hospital with severely psychotic individuals. I have noticed over the past few months that there seems to be a particular energy or type of psychosis that afflicts older black women. I have been working with one particular individual who has been afflicted with a particularly vile concentration of this. I have been considering an exorcism ritual for quite sometime. Knowing that this is not a working that could be accomplished in one working, thus this was a layered working. Also the exorcism certainly could not be performed with the individual at the hospital, not by any of my personal methods at any rate. So it also had to be performed nonlocally.

I have done some much lighter versions of this with other individuals. When an individual gives me something (i.e. drawings, handwritten notes, pieces of trash, packets of spice, crayons etc.) I have placed them on my altar for a period of time, said daily prayers over them and then burned them. 2 of the 3 individuals that I have done this with have been discharged from the hospital and not returned. The severity of this case and a couple of others has upped the ante.

The day of the ritual the individual OM gave me two tootsie rolls. These I used as sacrament for those who were willing to partake. On that day as well, another individual asked that I pray for her. There was a heavy emotional charge during this day. Two women broke into tears and required immediate attention from myself and another co-worker. Later both of those women broke into spontaneous worship and revival style prayer.

The basic intent was to exorcise the demons of psychosis, enhance my personal ability to exorcise demons and heal by my presence and desire open-handedly also to move fully into the sphere of Sol in my astronomical macro-microcosmic work and to use this shift to enhance all of above stated intent.

The ritual:

Set up involved placement of a single candle, incense, a sigil, small altar and the cut tootsie rolls in the center of the room. Chanting took the form of glossolalia. Instruction involved my telling the participants that I would be drawing from solar powers, exorcising the demons described above and to chant and do what they felt necessary. There was a warning and informed consent concerning the nature of what we would be dealing with. Aside from this there was allot of discussion but little instruction.

Once the chanting had begun I handed out the sacrament to those willing. I then set to work clearing Mercury form my mirror and drawing in Sol. When I turned back to the circle I went into full chant and went straight to the hospital. There I performed all of the ritual acts that I have wanted to perform at work but have been unable to. I dealt very heavily with OM's exorcism but then, contrary to plan, ended up being flooded by others. So, very much like I do at work, I dealt with these "demons" as they came. In the end I centered myself on the unit that I was focusing on and allowed the solar energy to build within me until it exploded from me saturating the hospital and vaporizing this demon psychosis in its path.

I don't think I speak for myself when I say I was utterly exhausted after the ritual had been completed. Frater Usul wisely suggested another banishing be performed.

Following ritual work did tend to energize me and I have felt quite well since. Of course more will be known concerning results over the next few weeks at work.

Prior work by Frater Usul, dealing with the throat chakra and communication blended well with my personal work of the evening. Further result from this chakra work have manifested in interpersonal dealings not appropriate to put in this medium. However, suffice it to say that there have been positive results from this work.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Yi

Dealing with a few things. 1) Motion toward Solar work 2) Job 3) My place in the Tao.

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So my decreasing draws to close. My time of loss and humility smoothly transition into the next phase. My cup is being filled. Thunder indicated firm resolution. Water from above sustains and fulfills, abundance of chi, thunder below. Wind above, outward flowing chi. Resolution to help aid and assist mankind.

King Wen’s decision; “favorable to have somewhere to go. Favorable to cross great rivers.” There is plenty of wind for my little wooden boat.

Relevant commentary:

“The joy of people is boundless; Increase of what is lower comes from what is above; It’s ways are greatly brightened. Favorable to somewhere to go because it is favorable and correct and therefore is blessed. Increase moves with gentleness and mildness, it proceeds daily without limit, heaven bestows and earth accepts, thereby things increase without restriction.”

“The Tao of increasing always proceeds in harmony with the time.”

“The superior person follows the good when he sees it and corrects his faults when he finds them.”

Initial 9: Favorable to engage in conducting great accomplishments. Supreme good fortune, no fault. Though the lower is not suitable to engage in great affaires. Increase alternates to watching.

Fifth nine: With sincerity and truthfulness , benefiting their hearts. No need to ask. Supreme good fortune, My virtue will be favored. No need to ask the reaction, this is what he really wants. Increase alternates to nourishing. 

Personal interpretation:

Heading toward Solar work. It is a good time to make this journey form mercury to the sun. Build a wooden sail boat to navigate the path. Symbols for this path will be three magi riding a wooden sailboat through an ocean of stars.

My boss and supervisors are good and will provide me with what I need. My working for the welfare of the people will always bring good fortune.

My place in the Tao is represented by the cup. I am an open vessel being filled.

 

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Hermetic days


For those keeping up this blog, sorry. I have been keeping much more personal notes in my handwritten journal as of late. Some things are not to be blogged, or made public in any form. Thus is the nature of the beast.
I will give you this. I picture of my current altar.
I have two things going on. There are heavy Mercury workings afoot.
But even heavier Immortality workings. You see I have been a heavy smoker for may many years. For most of those years I have been smoking non-filtered roll your own cigarettes. By many years I mean over half of the time I have been on this earth. A few years ago I got a serious case of pneumonia. Since then I developed chronic bronchitis. You would think I would quit. And I did several times for a few month long stints. I am now getting over another bad case of pneumonia. I have come to believe the smoking may not kill me but that it IS killing me. This I cannot tolerate. I am too young, my family too young and my great work too infantile!
I may post my Breaks from my last smoking ritual at a later date. Shit I gotta minute I will post them now.
I have done two ritual with this intent. One with Fratres ST and JD. Very powerful and very painful. I faltered few days alter of my own weakness. I reactivated the ritual by simulating the ritual to the best of my ability. The following is the journal entry from this last ritual. Which has held strong.

1:13:2010
Burned Heavily Dave Lee's Alchemy Aromatics Banishing Incense
Reactivation of the no smoking ritual. This time with aids. Lozenges, etc.
semi recreation of 1st. 1st didn't fail., it wained after some tough times, too tough, too much to go into during ritual writing. [I failed].
Sexually charged sigil, yellow candle, picture of my son, last cigarettes, lozenges, demon slaying sword, offering bowl ashtray, 3* mark, Pine MNT bottle, divination box.
1st cigarette
too much mars in life
Smoking ANY incense too often will kill you
especially Mars
Extinguish cigarette on sword.
_____
__ __

2nd cigarette
a 4th appears where there was 3
break the last one
no more pleasure in this act
only alleviation of another displeasure
How can I mentor
Or even consider myself a magi
If I cant kill my own tormenting demon
Especially if that demon is killing me!
This demon is too easy to pass on
TO loved ones, one's children in particular
You do NOT want your son to struggle with this
Extinguish cigarette on demon slaying sword
___ ___
_______

3rd cigarette
there is another, this should be the last but there is one left.
This IS the last 2 to break
Strange how tricky this demon is, to the point of manipulating
and distorting simple math!
I don't even like this anymore
Finish to affirm the distaste!
I can feel the sickness in this one.
Almost done. a bit of nausea
Cigarette extinguished on demon sword.
______ old
______ old

Hexagram:
_____ _____
___________
_____ _____
___________
___________
___________

Ritually broke 4th
Ritually broke 5th

Empty contents into bowl over Demon Slayer. Empty Box thrown to CWTZ
Finished water from Pine MNT bottle
Finish by IOA at main altar with wand
--ritual had its own plans
Burned rest of Sammael candle at both ends on top of sword
The whole thing caught fire
All tobacco burned and encased in yellow wax.

Hexagram of power over this demon. Mine i=s dead,m the problem is that is it such a rampant and fast breading demon an its offspring is innumerable.

Kan - cloud
Qian - heaven

Xu
the Tao of eating and drinking
Waiting on rain the Way the shaman waits patiently for rain during a drought. Needing the rain but waiting patiently until it comes of its own. I need to be over my addiction but must also wait patiently for it to leave of its own.
"If one has faith and remains steadfast, ones future will be bright."



Thursday, September 10, 2009

Plutonian Monasticism (day I)

IAO
plutos sigil blazes in the cardinal zones
burned Alchemy Aromatics Pluto Incense (available at www.tzujan.net)
stood erect and empty pulling, pulling magnetic
saffron and damar
pure yin to the yang of the Sun
crystal balls, translucent spheres, crystal skulls
black lodestone center.
reverse sigil extinquish all zones
"Ahhh! Woooh! What's happening? Who am I? Why am I here? What's my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Okay okay, calm down calm down get a grip now. Ooh, this is an interesting sensation. What is it? Its a sort of tingling in my... well I suppose I better start finding names for things. Lets call it a... tail! Yeah! Tail! And hey, what's this roaring sound, whooshing past what I'm suddenly gonna call my head? Wind! Is that a good name? It'll do. Yeah, this is really exciting. I'm dizzy with anticipation! Or is it the wind? There's an awful lot of that now isn't it? And what's this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like 'Ow', 'Ownge', 'Round', 'Ground'! That's it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it'll be friends with me? Hello Ground!
[dies] " The Whale
IAO

First day of monasticism. Nicotine withdrawal bad.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Ouranian Barbaric Word


Opened temple

Burned Alchemy Aromatics Kyphi Incense

It is my Will to discover the Ouranian Barbaric word for PEACE.


Sigil cast for two nights prior. Sigil cast again outside temple prior to working.

Sigil drawn now.


Meditation, deep humming vibration, solve et coagula

Disruptive thought, bell rings, Om

Sad thought, bell rings, Om

Angry thought, bell rings, Om


Peace resounds in the sharp high tone of mind and the deep low rumble of guts


The Die is cast.

I am called outside to me duties. This is ritual now.

Calculation made

interpretation...


Personal relevance:

Heng-Long Lasting-Duration

Thunder above Wind Below

A heart is drawn beside the boat that carries the old married couple home

Stop and Be

The creek has a path. If you are in the creek it causes only misfortune to move against it.

Be defined by the situation.
"The way of long lasting is to let the situation determine one's changes and transformations."
-Master Huang

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Monasticism Day VI

It is my Will to rest complete in my sleep
Sleep fell upon me and pentagrams burned
At the four quarters of my bed
My head burned with darkness
My right hand burned with sadness
My feet burned with regret
My left hand burned with desire
I awoke with faint memory of dreamscape escaping
Fist to the face of foes, a jihad of consciousness
Upon waking an escape occurred and I rested
Banished and rested some more

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Monasticism Day V

It is My Will...
SLKNT is much more than at first inspected
SLKNT is evolution, adaptive mutation
Learn to conserve this
Learn to manipulate this
Draw what one is, out into the environment
Burn the proper wicks and smoldering sigils
Quit procrastinating and make making made!
Make sacrament of Coffee
Make instigation

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Monasticism Day III


It is my Will to walk through this darkness with calm resolve

as on level ground

to flow as water through a crevasse

K'an flows through smoke of water

The scent of lotus heavy in perception

The token gives passage and I am thrown into the depths

Frozen water surround, freezing water captures

As breathing slows to hypothermic the sigil is cast

And I wait

Blood of the moon reflecting impossible distances

The smoke rings Mรญngwรกngxฤซng

And I am given Sun

The water is low and the mountain is high

K'an is kept away and cultivation begins

I am to design two small bowls for sacrifice

Going with the time it is that I should decrease the firm and increase the yielding

"Thus the superior man controls his anger and restrains his instincts"

Six in the fifth supreme good fortune and ten tortoise shellsAfter ten changes it should be known

That evaporation from the lake rains down and nourishes the mountain

Restrain the self that others may prosper

Sexual Gnosis -->black ray

Monday, May 18, 2009

Monasticism Day II

It is my Will to invoke the intelligences of Pluto
Mรญngwรกngxฤซng
Bell rings
Mรญngwรกngxฤซng
Bell rings
depths of distant screaming hells
hollowed halls and courts of judgment
It is my place here safely frozen quietly listening
Repenting silently in the tenth
A boat and a little blue bearded man gives coin
A bell and a skull of silver token
Myrrh burns solid and my will is done

Dreams: recorded elsewhere to maintain privacy.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

NOX + Monasticism day I

Last nights NOX rituals hit the spot for me. On many levels I felt very confident and excited about the direction that the Kalatchela is going. That aside everyone's rituals were awesome.

My ritual.

Taoist Death Metal and the Art of Demon warfare.

This ritual was quite simply an evocation of my personal demons into the willing magickians around me. This done an exorcistic battle ensued. Three total and very heavy exorcisms.

This ritual also marked for the the taking of the Lesser Observances of a Monk of Chaos for a period of at least one week, perhaps longer.

Monasticism day I:

1. Spent nearly 10 minutes looking for my staff which seemed to just vanish into thin air. Found it.

2. IAO banishing in the car on the way home from temple.

3. No dreams.

4.
Link Break Curse Back
Listen to old crone groan and the sizzle of sigil scents
Demon portal bloodhound pack circles
Blood on the door wiped clean and thanks for the link
Burning boiling hell that is yours
You can keep it
Your own sadness, your own depression, your own feelings of inferiority, your own attempts to bolster your week little ego, your own controlling manipulative string of lies
You can keep it
smoldering fields were battles were won
Two taps of the cane forever echoing
2, 2, 2, 2 is ultimately 8 and we close

5. Two sexual gnosis dedicated to magick. One with partner one solo. The first was used to charge a RED chaosphere. The second began as a black chaosphere that hovered above my head then shot a ray of yellow into my chest. This caused me to involuntarily convulse for perhaps 20 seconds. the intensity of that casting was a bit unexpected, but good, very good.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

and where the fuck have you been?

Okay I really have no intention of answering that. I have been.

Ritual meditation this evening
Heavy smoke and rolls of pillar snow
Transfer, slight of mind, play of hand, relax
Placement is magick, manipulation of object one
Preparation for the move to object two
One in two and AAACHOO x 2
Kuei is out and playing games
7 die and a bird sings a song to the moon
63ยบ and midnight
Yin is quicker than Yang

Friday, April 10, 2009

Protection

Quick Cast
Protection sigil.
A huge storm came up on us this evening.
Banished by GPR
Stated intent
"It is my will that no harm will fall on this house or this family."
Created mind sigil
Cast sigil in all four directions
Cast sigil above my head
Cast sigil below my feet drawing with my right foot.
Impromptu mantra during drawing of sigil into aether.
Held finishing posture while forcing my will outwards and mostly upwards into the cell.
My body tingled with energy and I was drawn to tears. I could hear the storm subside as I held my posture. Before casting the news was saying to take cover. After casting the news was saying we were in the clear.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Anti-Freeze

4:06:2009

I should be ashamed of myself considering my lack of upkeep on this blog. But I am not. Things are afoot and things are cook’in. And whom my dears is cooking for you?

To preface I should note that magick has been extremely prevalent of late. It will take some time to go back and update the situation, so I will not. April 2nd my grandmother has surgery. My Sister, Frater U and myself performed a simultaneous casting the night before (April 1st) for the success of the surgery. Our results were spot on. There are pics of this to post so I will add to this in a separate post-post at a later time. Before this there have been a series of Earth workings. Utilizing the Exploding Talisman Technique as well as general household earth magicks. This technique will need explanation as well, something I’ve been toying with for a minute. We have had a NOX since I last wrote; this is where I performed the Earth Exploding Talisman ritual. Prior to that my wife and I performed a Spring Equinox Rite with our Chickens first (and seemingly only of 3) egg of the season. This went exceedingly well and deserves much more than a preface, so I will post-post on that one as well, besides I have pics from that too. In fact I have pics from several of the larger workings I have performed over the last month of blog absence.

So what for tonight? Working with Frater JD we performed an Antifreeze ritual. We both have gardens started and do not wish to see them parish do to a “blueberry summer” (thanks Dave). So JD created the sigil and mantra and did some preliminary work with it. This evening we both worked in unison. I had copied the sigil and with my son (15 months) colored it and talismanized it.


I used this talisman with the mantra this evening while burning incense specially tuned to the element fire. I pulled warmth up form the equator. I burned from within until the energy exploded form me and out in all directions blowing the cold away. Then I saw JD sitting in front of me in his study. Our incense burning, I put my hands out palm out to meet his. Palms together we chanted and created a ball of heat between us that gre to massive proportions and warmed the soil, air and continued to pull warm air currents up to our region.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Earth Deity Found


Ritual to find a strong Earth Deity and give it its first mission
Ritual performed with Frater J at his ‘Dirty Foot’ Temple.

1. Opened by impromptu calling of the corners and placement of elemental weapons
(Impromptu calling of the corners involves a light invocation of the element and a freestyle verbal calling)
2. At the Earth quadrant statement of intents were spoken allowed and sigilized
3. Seated at temple center “NOBO” was chanted, incense was lit and Salvia cigarettes smoked
4. Visionary results obtained
5. Sigil burned

Results:

Name: Salakunt
Image: The image was that of an evolving snake/salamander. End result was a larger salamander with glistening grayish green and red scales, large black hood like that of a king cobra, and huge antlers with a neon glowing from within as if they were made of electricity rather than bone.

The image was at first of an upright glowing triangle that took some concentration to turn upside down. With this done this slimy birth-grey beady eyed snake/worm came gushing out. This quickly evolved into a proper snake with brilliant scales. This crawled up and into me wrapping around my spine and crushing itself into my structure. Its head filled my head and then the antlers came shooting out of my head and into the heavens. The hood spread itself out behind me. Arms sprouted into my own and legs followed.

Secondary intent was [private].

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Earth I

Earth
Talisman creation
Sigil casting
Meditation


Free flowing into this one. Did some inspiring synchronistic research on my name prior. Had some sigil work in mind that I wanted to do and this flowed well into the earth meditation of the evening. Don’t want to go too deeply into the talisman etc, need to maintain a distance from these things. However I did achieve an understanding of the eye rolling during meditation. This is not just an exercise but a system. As the eyes roll so does the cosmos. The eyes of course are yang, the only yang we have, and they orbit, allowing for a clearer vision of placement. This is a vantage point with which to see the macro-cosmos. Then the almost violent crossing of the eyes, the slamming of the eyes into the tan tien, brings it all rushing into the body, the macro becomes the micro. I stayed here not allowing for deeper gnosis. I stayed with earth, stuck to her allowed her smooth transitions and evolutions and seasons and rains and violence and warmth and decay and beauty to guide me. This moment was a euphoric gnosis that I have not felt in meditation in as long as I can remember. Tzu Jan, to be completely what one is, natural. To do exactly what one does, flow. To be… there were moments of feeling at one with fallen branches and limbs and stick laying on the forest floor, in piles, branches mingling in such a way with no form and no pattern but as to have each stick holding each other stick up off the ground. Earth is the function of chaos. Earth is the found art of the minds eye. We invariably are earth, we are in earth, we are of earth, we are grounded. And this too came to me, this grounding. All this work is grounded, all this work has foundation.



The Altar is nearly finished. I will post pics when it is completed. I felt compelled to put it in a very public place, my front yard. Front and center of my house. My cat killed a mole yesterday and left it on the porch, the day after the altar was erected so I put that on the altar. Kinda gross but it seemed appropriate. I will be setting it up so that me and the people that know about it and its purpose can pin prayers and sigils onto a flag behind.

Monday, February 9, 2009

misc.

I have performed several rituals that have not been recorded. This is to my downfall. I don’t want to go into a lot of excess detail right now but should at some point write the mercury talisman invocation and sigil casting. I obtained results from this ritual in a relatively short period of time. Unfortunately I was not specific enough with my intent and ended up with something I did not quite mean. To give a brief, I cast with the intent of finishing the Xaotao book before I left for my doctoral program. The result so far has been a decision not to pursue that particular program for various reasons. These reasons are necessary and good, but this overrode the more implicit idea that I should have this book written in one year. Now, this is not to say that the intent may still not be achieved. It may come about that the relief itself from the pressure to get it done before a big move and shift in my life will be a good thing. We shall see how this plays out.

I have tightened up on my diet again. Not that I got totally off track, but I was eating too much dairy, and too much in general. On February 7th I fasted all day and then on the 8th ate a bowl of steel cut oats. I found that after 24 hours of fasting I begin to get a bit light headed and while this would ordinarily be an okay state for me I cannot completely fast and feel comfortable in my ability to care for my son at my highest capacity. My eating has become lighter and of grains, nuts, fruits and cooked veggies. I am staying away from processed foods, no veggie burgers etc. I have also cut back significantly on my smoking, which had picked up again at an alarming rate. This is in direct response to the ritual I performed to obtain a name for my addiction demon. This name has been used to great affect to curb the desire to smoke when inappropriate. This is most of the time these days.

Beginning preparations for devotional work dealing specifically with the earth goddess energy. I do not at present have the internet in my study which has slowed me down a bit. Sometimes in dealing with specific practical matters in Taoist shamanism it is frustrating as most of the information that is available in my personal library concerns yoga and philosophical Taoism rather than any practical magicks. Jan Fries has some useful information in a relatively practical format, but still he deals more with meditation than magick itself.

So my beginning preparations included building two new raised garden boxes in my yard, constructing an altar of wood and concrete on my front lawn and cleaning/organizing my study, cleaning my brushes and establishing an altar space dedicated to this specific purpose.

I am feeling like much of this is the manifestation of some “organization” sigil work I have done in the past month. I will have to check my intent bank to verify that. At any rate, taking the Xaobala system as a map of microcosm will guide me in my spiraling in meditations. In this the Xaobala is a map that was developed from observations of the solar system and quantum physics. This is superimposed on the inner self. As without so within. So beginning at earth and studying, working with, invoking, enchanting, manipulated etc the energies at each planetary sphere an order is developed whereby solid work can be achieved. I feel like I have been skipping around, trying this, tasting that, and generally dabbling. It is time to get some depth. And so it shall be.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Talisman sigil working

I've been taking things way too seriously!